Saturday, December 15, 2007

50/50

Just heard from the doctor. The news is not great.

She said that there is a 50/50 chance that this is a viable pregnancy, based on those blood test results. She said that it could be indicative of a pregnancy that will miscarry or possibly an ectopic pregnancy.

The fact that I feel completely un-pregnant at the moment, with practically no symptoms to speak of, is not a good sign.

I will go in for another blood test tomorrow and my levels will need to be in the 1600 range or we will know our answer.

I'm trying to stay hopeful but I'm finding it near impossible right now.

Completely. Fucking. Devastated.

6 comments:

Xbox4NappyRash said...

Until you hear otherwise you have to stay positive, for all your sakes.

I wish you weren't going through this, I wish I had some clever answer, I wish I could make some difference but we know of course that I can't.

What I can do is remind you that you have some hope, please hold onto it, please use it, please get stronger from it, please don't let it go.

Our prayers don't often get answered, but you're welcome to one of mine.

All my best.

Ally said...

Hilary, I so wish I had something better to offer you than this; my best hope for you is that all will be well with this pregnancy.

I can see why it would be so easy for you to be feeling horribly scared and worried and devestated. I will be sending you all my positive thoughts and vibes in the hopes that it will reach you and help.

You are on my mind and in my prayers. May you feel surrounded by love right now.

Fertilize Me said...

i am praying for you and your husband. I am so sorry this has not been fair or kind to you

Anonymous said...

I know it feels hopeless, but 50/50 still leaves a lot of room for success. Some women just have a slower rise than others. Your numbers DID increase!
I know the next day is going to be really tough, but hang in there and please know that your internet friends are sending thoughts and prayers and love.

Omelas said...

Been lurking ever since my 3AA blast was put in me on Dec 3rd and i found your blog when i was desperately trying to find out what the hell a 3AA blast meant!
I was so incredibly hopeful and I have one more blood test before they pull the progesterone. Was only 40 last wednesday - but enough to be my first pregnancy after five years and one other IVF - but i started to cramp and bleed and two days later it dropped to 6. They say it's highly unlikely that it is still in there but "never say never" It's incredibly frustrating to have everything go perfectly, and have it actually implant, and then learn that it won't likely stick - I'm glad to hear the odds might be as high as 50% for you - still frustrating I know. Just wanted to let you know you have someone with a really similar situation just a few days behind you. I'd say well wishes, but if i counted up all the prayers and well wishes i'd have a couple of babies by now! :)

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