OK, I'm actually starting to feel really stupid about how resentful I was at L. I look back at what I wrote a couple of weeks ago, and it seems so silly now. How could I not have realized that L knew that seeing her and talking to her would be hard for me. She told me that she was avoiding contacting me and letting me make the first move, because, as she said, if the tables were turned, she wouldn't have wanted to talk to me. She also told me today that she has been mourning my loss and the fact that we are not able to go through our pregnancies together. She said it has been really sad for her. It hadn't even occurred to me that she might have been affected by what's happened too.
Anyway, I just wanted to say again that I am so glad that we've rekindled our friendship. She is a very special friend and I'm so happy I've come to my senses and realized that. I just want to put all the negativity and anger I've felt behind me. It's time to start fresh all around.