Thank you everyone, for the down-home bloggy ass kicking. It was well deserved and I really needed that. You guys are so right. I totally need to calm down.
I am finding it increasingly hard to maintain perspective these days. I know some of it is hormones, some of it is going through a previous loss, and some of it is just due to the fact that I am a high-strung anxiety-ridden, end-of-the-world, worry wart kind of gal. I wasn’t going to say anything, but I can’t keep secrets from you guys – I have been referred to the reproductive mental health counseling program at the hospital where I will give birth. At my last OB/GYN appointment, I think my doctor sensed my anxiety and while she did reassure me that it’s not uncommon in pregnancy, she does not want me to live in this fear that I constantly find myself in. And it’s not good for a parent to raise their child with that kind of fear. So she sent over a referral and there it is. I’m going for help. Unfortunately the soonest I can get in is March 31st. Ya gotta love the Canadian health care system. It’s free, so I can’t complain, but they sure don’t do anything in a hurry.
My doctor did end up calling me about an hour ago regarding my concerns over my cervix. Her exact words: “You’re fine. Get off the internet. I will tell you when there’s something to worry about. Don’t worry until I tell you to worry. They will check your cervix again at your 19 week scan. At this point, you’re at no more risk of going into preterm labour than the average person. You’re FINE. Take care.” And that was it.
Thanks for putting up with me and still continuing to check in even though I have been a whiner extraordinaire. You guys will never know how much I appreciate each and every one of you. Got nothin’ but love for y'all.