Sunday, January 6, 2008

8 Weeks Today

Eight weeks. Wow!

How I'm feeling:
-Tired
-Brief, quick, random moments of mild nausea (barely any, really)
-Hungry, Thirsty
-Still peeing A LOT
-Face breaking out like I'm a teenager
-Starting to get a bit constipated
-The sore breasts have really gone down over the past week
-Tingling sensation in my cervix
-Backache, muscle spasms
-A bit moody
-Bloating after meals
-Thrilled, with moments of worry interspersed

My latest worry came from an "incident" that happened last night. Let's call it the "Grocery Bag Incident". I went down to the grocery store a couple of blocks away last night to pick up something for dinner. While I was there, I found a bunch of other things I wanted, and threw them into the buggy, not thinking about the fact that I'd have to carry all this stuff home.

When I went and checked out, I panicked as the cashier loaded up all the bags. I panicked again when I realized I forgot my cell phone and couldn't call D to come down and help me carry them. Stupidly, very stupidly, I struggled with ALL the bags by myself and took them back to our condo. I am a terrible guesser of weight, but I am thinking the bags weighed a total of 25 pounds or so - divided between both arms. They really felt too heavy for what I should be safely lifting.

When I got home, D immediately scolded me for not being more careful. As if I didn't feel guilty enough. He yelled and yelled about how irresponsible I was being and how I have to think about the baby, etc. I got mad right back at him because I already felt bad enough, I was already beating myself up about it, I certainly didn't need his help to feel terrible. The whole thing escalated into a big stupid fight and consequently, I had horrible dreams all last night.

This morning, when I woke up, I immediately got the urge to get a fetal doppler. Now, understandably, this could be a dangerous little toy for a freaker-outer like me. I can easily envision myself abusing a fetal doppler - and worrying about silly stuff like "the heartbeat is 2 beats slower today than yesterday", etc. D and I are currently in tense negotiations about whether we should get one or not. He doesn't think so. But I want one. I think it would be grand to have reassurance at the touch of a button.

WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK?? SHOULD WE GET A FETAL DOPPLER OR NO? OPINIONS APPRECIATED!!

13 comments:

AwkwardMoments said...

my husband will not let me have a fetal dopplar. Because i ama panicker as well. He works nights and he has visions of me just abusing the heck out of it or worse, not being able to get the thing to work while he is on night shifts and i work myself into a tessy and cause more harm to myself and the baby -

You just have to be smart. If you can control yourself - if this is more temptation than you can control,then do not even bring it in your home-but if you feel confident that you can handle it - by all means- go get one - they are pretty cool.

there have been times i REALLy wished we had one, but my dr's are very good to/for me and my nerves

christina(apronstrings) said...

OH NO! crazy woman. were you hungry
? make of mental note of: hungry pregnant women SHOULD NOT go to a grocery store. because of course we'll buy too much, because 'hell what will we not eat, and we're already carrying another human, right?

i am getting a doppler. i think i can control it. we'll see. assuming, of course, that this doesn't all got to pot.

in sum....but the doppler, back away from the grocery store.

Hilary (Maya Papaya) said...

Alright - we have one "pro" fetal doppler and one "con".

Next commenter, the pressure's on YOU to be the tiebreaker!!

Anonymous said...

I'm going to play Switzerland here and not express an opinion, because I'm not pregnant, but just ask the questions:
a) how much are they?
b) does it affect the baby?
c) will you become obsessed with using it?

Hilary (Maya Papaya) said...

Good questions all, GiantSpeedBump, good questions all.

To answer:
a) they are about $40 per month to rent
b) they are supposedly safe for the baby
c) yes, I'm afraid I will most certainly become obsessed with using it ;-)

I spoke to my acupuncturist about it today and she said not to get one because of the whole "obsession" thing. I think the the votes are leaning towards No Doppler at this point...

Kristen said...

Seeing that I have a doppler, I am a tad bit biased but I say to rent/buy a doppler. HOWEVER, if you have a tendency to freak out, I would wait to try it out until 10 weeks or so. Or try it a day or two before your appointment so if you don't find it, you can look forward to the u/s.

Our symptoms sound really similar - especially the acne. I look like a 12 year old! But I'm glad things are going well. I've been praying for you! XOXO

Mama Bunny said...

I have never heard of a fetal doppler before, but it sounds like a FABULOUS idea!!!

sarah23 said...

First of all, I would say that I cannot imagine how carrying 25 lbs (which gives your arms, shoulders, and possibly your back a workout) could have any detrimental effect on a little embryo who is tucked in safe deep in your uterus. Try not to worry! As far as the Doppler, I would say also say, "no." I may be wrong, but my impression is that a fetal Doppler is used from the outside, rather than being a transvaginal probe (aka DildoCam). However, I don't think you can get any heartbeat from the outside yet. (Right?? perhaps someone who has been pregnant can answer this one). Even later in your pregnancy, I think that having that thing is going to just increase your anxiety level. Good luck with all of this!

Martin said...

Don't get one, you'll be holding a mirror up to your sleeping 45 year old son or daughter in years to come to check if they're still breathing!

Relax, take care of yourself, and everything will be fine.

Mel said...

Ha... some brilliant doctor needs to invent a pregnancy safe xanax, seriously. You are worrying TOO MUCH. There is such a thing!! As hard as it is, somedays you have to just hope for the best, because any answer you get from a fetal doppler may or may not alleviate your fears, and even then that is only a temporary relief. Pause. Breathe. If you get overly worried about what you're doing, call the DR.

RBandRC said...

I've been debating the same thing. That is a dangerous little item for me to have, so I think for sanity's sake I will resist, but if you really want one and your hubby says yes... :)

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