Saturday, December 29, 2007

Goings On

Yesterday, I decided to walk up to Robson Street, Vancouver's shopping district, to search for after-Christmas bargains. I had a nice time, dropped in on a friend, bought a few odds and ends, nothing special. I had a lovely time all by myself.

While I was out, I was overcome by the most intense sense of gratitude for finally being pregnant. I can't explain the feeling, other than to say that it was overwhelming. I spend so much of my time feeling nervous, anxious and scared over every little thing, and it was so nice to feel involuntarily positive for a while. My breast hurt, I had a nice bloat going, and I couldn't have been happier.

On another note, this morning I woke myself up at the tail end of a naughty dream that ended with a, um, very real happy ending. Crap! Not again! I don't want to do anything that could put Scrappy in jeopardy and I'm so mad at myself for letting it happen. Everything I've read says that generally speaking, orgasms in pregnancy - even early pregnancy - are considered safe, but somehow this is not reassuring me. This probably sounds really silly, but I've really worked myself into a panic. I desperately hope my little Scrappy is okay.

Damnit! It will be an ice cold shower before bed for me tonight...

In other embarrassing news, I am most definitely NOT constipated, which I understand is a very common complaint during pregnancy. Not to say that there's anything wrong per se, but I am - for the first time in my life - extremely regular. Like clockwork. This has been going on since just before the IVF and has continued until now. Not that I'm complaining. I just find it odd.

Oh the things you're learning about Hilary today. Aren't you glad you checked in on my blog? Think of what you would have missed if you hadn't!!

And the nausea: Still very minimal, but I do think it exists outside of my head. It only happens a small handful of times throughout any given day, and consists of 10-15 seconds of feeling gross. I usually feel like gagging, which I do sometimes, and then it's over. So far, I have had no problems eating or anything like that. I suppose I should consider myself lucky, but I'd still prefer to be reassuringly barfy.

Cravings/Food Aversions: None so far. Well, sometimes the smell of coffee is gross, but not all the time. I haven't really had any cravings except for protein and vegetables. What really sounds good to me is eggs, cheese, meat. It's a bit odd because usually I am a carb lover, but lately I'm totally off bread and anything sweet (except for fruit). I think this has more to do with the fact that I am acutely aware of what I'm doing to my insulin levels, rather than it being a true "craving". In other words, if someone told me that tree bark was good for pregnancy, I'd probably feel like eating it by the wheelbarrow full.

Tomorrow I'll be 7 weeks along. Our first "heartbeat" ultrasound is coming up on Wednesday. I am so nervous. Make that terrified. Please don't get me wrong - I'm beyond grateful and thrilled to be coming up on 7 weeks. I am just hoping so hard that Scrappy is doing well and we get to see a nice strong heartbeat on Wednesday. Oh PLEASE let us see that beautiful heartbeat!

7 comments:

Alyssa said...

I'm glad you've been enjoying being pregnant. I hope that feeling is the predominant one for you throughout your pregnancy!

As for the other...I haven't heard of anyone who has ever lost a baby due to orgasm. I'm sure you'll be okay.

Anonymous said...

Don't worry, the constipation won't start for another few months.

As for orgasm, um, yeah, it does cause extremely strong (and for me, very painful) uterine cramping, which can lead to bleeding, which in turn leads to unbelievable fear and worry and depression. I'm all for avoiding those, which is why I don't plan on doing anything until I get closer to my due date and the kid's a bit more mature. I just can't take the risk even though he's got a good chance of surviving at 7.5 months.

Hilary (Maya Papaya) said...

AAARRGH! But I didn't do it on purpose!

Thankfully I haven't had any strong cramping or bleeding though.

I just hope that the contractions didn't harm Scrappy. I feel so guilty just thinking about it.

Martin said...

I'm a bit confused now, stupid man question coming up, it IS ok to have sex during pregnancy right... RIGHT?

AwkwardMoments said...

Um..if you read a few months back.. i had a few of these "dreams" that cause those "happy endings" a few times and i asked my Dr about it and she laughed and said ENJOY! So do not fear those. ;) I am glad that you are NOT experiencing constipation and Grats on having a glimpse of pregnancy freedom. Sending you hugs and thoughts for the dr's appointment

Hilary (Maya Papaya) said...

Xbox - I think for NORMAL people it's okay to have sex and orgasms during pregnancy as long as it's not a high-risk pregnancy. However, in the IVF instruction package I received, they explicitly write NO SEX OR ORGASMS until after the 7 week fetal heartbeat is found on ultrasound. I have instituted a sex ban anyway until we get to 12 weeks because, well, I am just that paranoid.

Farrah - Thanks for putting my mind somewhat at ease. It's amazing what your mind cooks up while you innocently sleep!

Martin said...

Phew, thanks!