In my quest to calm down, I downloaded some guided meditations for my iPod. I listened to the first one today and promptly fell straight asleep! Probably a side effect from doing the meditation on my bed. But oh well, it was a terrific nap, really, one of the best I've had in a long time. I'll try again tomorrow and maybe next time I'll use a chair.
I also started the Synarel nasal spray this morning. This is a bit of a big deal for me because this means I've officially started the IVF medication protocol. Very exciting! Although, I had never ever used a nasal spray before. I "primed" the pump, as instructed by the nurse, and stuck that sucker up my right nostril. I closed my left nostril, pressed the pump and inhaled. And I didn't feel a thing! I started to wonder if the medication came out. So even though I know better, I pumped a second time. Still didn't feel anything. Then I tipped my head backwards and waited for a few seconds. Lo and behold I started to taste that telltale medicine taste in the back of my throat. So I guess it worked. And I guess I "double dosed" myself. Yikes. I won't make that mistake again.
D and I went out for lunch today at this great little cafe that we love. They make the best beef chili in the whole world, as well as unparalleled pastries. I didn't know if the beef in the chili was organic (hormone free) or not, so I decided to get a homemade chicken pot pie instead. It was delicious, although very, very crusty. I felt guilty after eating it because flour is not such a good thing for me and my insulin levels. However, the guilt did not stop me from indulging in a beautiful brownie afterwards. It was naughty, but it was heaven. I'm too tired too beat myself up over it. My ass and insulin levels will just have to get over it.