Today, I tested again with both OPKs. This time the results were clearly negative. I'm really trying to figure out what happened here. Is it possible that the small (2 tenths-of-a-degree) jump in temperature yesterday meant that I ovulated? If that's the case, then our timing was very good, considering we had sex twice the day before the rise and once the day before that. It's all so confusing. Just when I thought I had a handle on what was happening, I'm all confused again. Now I know why they say on the test that once you get a positive result, stop testing for that cycle. That makes sense because continuous testing results in complete confusion.
Oh well. If I ovulated, well that's great because our timing was good. If I haven't yet, well that's great too because it means there's still time to get in some more lovin'. I seriously, seriously need to chill out about this. I've been stressing over this process and it can't be helping things. It's probably best to just continue having sex as much as possible until I know what's what.
I had a lovely breakfast with L this morning. She called me right out of the blue, which was so great. I talked with her a bit about how I'm having trouble picturing being pregnant, like there's part of me that doesn't believe it will happen. She made a very good point in saying that it probably has a lot to do with self-preservation and self-protection. I should stop beating myself up about not being able to visualize being pregnant. It's going to happen.