We had our first childbirthing class last night (class one of two). It went well, I quite like our teacher, despite the fact that she is a bit touchy-feely-hippy-dippy. I think the best part of the class was learning stuff I hadn't considered prior. For example, D now knows how to support me during labour and I now know how to communicate with him to let him know what I need and want. We also learned some pain coping techniques using ice as a pain source. All in all, I think I got more out of the class than D did, but he was a good sport and tried his best.
In fact, I was feeling so fine and confident that what happened at the end of the class really threw me for a loop. During the last 30 minutes of the class, our instructor showed us some labour videos. One of them followed 5 real couples through all the stages of labour from the beginning until birth. It was graphic to say the least. And not just a little unnerving. Let's just say I woke up at 3am this morning with those labour vids replaying in my mind and I couldn't get back to sleep. I went into the class feeling excited and confident, and now I am scared shitless. I can't get those images and the sounds of the screaming out of my head. Yup, I'm a little freaked out.
I mean, of course I always knew it would hurt, but I guess my experience last night was a nice little reality check.
Our teacher also gave us some homework: Some reading, some exercises, some things to buy, etc. And oh yeah, to have sex twice a week. CONFESSION: D and I have not had sex since we've been pregnant. Not. Once. In NINE months. At first I was just too scared to do it. And now we've waited so long I don't know how to even go about doing it. I'm huge and I can't imagine what positions we could possibly do. And I'm afraid it'll hurt and I'll bleed (which will totally freak me out) because it's been so long. Not to mention I feel about as sexy as a hippopotamus right now. My husband is a saint. That's all I can say. (And he doesn't even have a bit of stuff on the side!)
However, having said that, I'm determined to do my homework, and I do mean ALL of it. Tonight might just be the night.