Monday, December 10, 2007

4w1d...

I tested again this morning. Two different brands, two blaring positives. My first beta is on Wednesday, second is on Friday, and I'm trying to reserve excitement until after I know those results. I know more than anyone that a positive test is only the first step.

But I must admit that underneath my reserved exterior I am secretly thrilled about this. Actually I don't even think thrilled covers it, nor does elated, ecstatic, beyond grateful, or over-the-moon happy.

Yesterday I started noticing some symptoms that I am sure are related to *ahem* my condition (I'm still not quite ready to say it out loud). During the day I started noticing my breasts. Not because they were sore or uncomfortable per se, really I was just aware of them more than usual; they seemed to be large and in the way. On closer inspection yesterday evening, they are definitely bigger. Definitely. And a bit more veiny than usual. Of course my skin is like pale parchment paper - you can usually see my entire respiratory system at work. However, I definitely noticed it more last night.

By the time I went to bed, my breasts had become a bit uncomfortable and sore enough that I had trouble sleeping on my stomach. I tossed and turned most of the night. Partly because I was excited to test again, partly because I am excited about this recent development (the situation, not the boobs) and partly because I was ravenously hungry. I resisted a trip to the kitchen for a few hours and when I couldn't take it anymore, I finally had some peanut butter crackers around 3:30am. That's when I tested again.

I went out to lunch yesterday with L (7 months pregnant) and I told her the news. She gave me some really good advice that I'm going to try really hard to follow. She said: You have no control over this process. None whatsoever. Just try to relax.

She's right. All I can do is keep myself healthy, get plenty of rest, and enjoy the ride. And that, my friends, is exactly what I'm going to do.

9 comments:

Mel said...

Wow. This could be it, for real. I am dying for Wednesday, I cannot imagine how YOU are feeling!!!!!!!
Just said a quick prayer for you.

Deep breath.

I_Sell_Books said...

Oh yes, the hunger! The boob pain! The nipple pain! The hunger! I am happy to report that the ravenous hunger does eventually calm down...but not for awhile. Like a couple of months.

But for now, eat!

Oro

AwkwardMoments said...

i noticed nipple) pain, and hunger ... I totally thought AF was showing up. I agree with the above poster - eat when hungry - It makes no sense but i have ate and ate til my heart is content and i have lost 15 lbs.

Your friend L sounds very smart! Good advice ;) .. this all sounds like excellent news on the horizon

Hilary (Maya Papaya) said...

I'm trying to keep calm and level-headed on the outside...but inside I'm jumping for joy. I want to shout from the rooftops!

Martin said...

I'm still holding back on the profanity.

I'm SO happy for you and I hope with every once of my clinically obese carcass and this is for real.

RBandRC said...

YES!!! A positive is a positive and on two different brands...YAY! Keeping everything crossed that your betas come back looking great. HUGS!

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