Sweet Relief

Fantastic news! I finally spoke to my doctor this afternoon and she said exactly what Anonymous Commenter said about TSH levels having a reaction with the pregnancy hormone HCG. I ended up being so freaked out that I got another blood test done yesterday to recheck my TSH levels. When my doctor had called, she already had yesterday's test results in hand. This time, they were well within normal limits; the were actually even on the low end of the spectrum. What a relief. I was so worked up over this and it was all for nothing. I must admit, I'm not doing a very good job of controlling my daily mini-meltdowns when it comes to this whole TTC process.

While I had my doctor on the phone today, I also asked her about my chart and she gave me a bit of a vague answer in that maybe it was so erratic due to not having enough sleep or something. (Of course, my sleep patterns have been regular, so I don't know about that.) Anyway, I realized it comes down to this: Either I ovulated or I didn't. I will find out for better or worse in about a week and there's nothing I can do about it until then. If I did ovulate, I have a pretty good chance of conceiving this cycle because lord knows we had plenty of sex. If I didn't ovulate, it would be a giant bummer, but we would try again on a higher level of Clomid. My gut is telling me that I did ovulate. I still have no idea what's going on with my chart but I guess only time will tell. If I get a huge temp increase tomorrow morning that makes my chart triphasic, I will be beyond happy and grateful. OMG if I DON'T have another dip, I'll be beyond happy and grateful!

TMI alert....Ever since ovulation, I have had copious amounts of creamy CM. Really creamy. Really plentiful. I wonder what is causing this. It's like nothing I've ever seen. I'd like to wonder if it's an early pregnancy symptom, but I don't want to get my hopes up.

OK, so my thyroid is normal, my PCOS seems to be managable, I can safely assume I ovulated, we had plenty of sex this cycle...I think I can offiially chill out now. I guess I have no reason to freak out anymore and besides, this story will go one way or the other and I'll find out either way in about a week. So there. This is me officially letting go.