19 Weeks Today

Wow almost half-way there! Crazy how sometimes time really does seem like it's flying.

Scrappy was quite active yesterday and I felt more taps and flutters than I've felt any other day so far. In fact, at one point Scrappy moved, and I quickly put my hand on the spot where I felt the movement. A few seconds later, s/he did it again and I could feel it, albeit lightly, from the outside. So cool. D had just left the room so unfortunately he missed the show. I am really excited for the day that D will be able to feel our baby move from the outside. I think he is too.

While I'm trying to remain positive and optimistic, I am pretty much FREAKING OUT about our upcoming ultrasound on Tuesday. This is "the big one" and is probably the most meaningful milestone during this entire pregnancy so far. I can't help but be nervous and anxious about it. I am also really excited and totally terrified all at the same time. In a nutshell, I'm kind of an emotional wreck about this ultrasound. I think besides the obvious reasons, I am partly so nervous because we've declined all other testing up to now, so this ultrasound also represents the outcome of the triple screen and the AFP test that we never had.

Please let everything go well. Please let our Scrappy show perfect development in all areas. Please let this kid measure right on target. Please let my cervix measure long and closed. Please let my placenta look normal. Please.

If you guys can spare a good thought for us on Tuesday at 4:30pm, I would be sincerely grateful. I am taking the entire day off work on Tuesday because I know I won't be productive. I'll just be curled in a ball in some corner of my house, rocking back and forth, chanting over and over "Oh my G-d, Oh my G-d, Oh my G-d...".

We may or may not find out the gender at this ultrasound. On the one hand, we might get a groovy tech that sees that we're devoted parents and doesn't mind breaking the "20 week law" that we have here in Canada about finding out the gender. (We'll only be 19w2d at the time of the scan.) On the other hand, we could get a really officious tech who doesn't bend or budge on the rules at all. This actually happened to my friend last week who went in for her scan at 19w6d and despite the fact that she was only one day away from 20 weeks, the tech WOULD NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES disclose the sex to her. However, I have another friend that went in at 19w2d and they did end up telling her the baby's gender without hesitation. So as you can see, it could really go either way.

But honestly, finding out the gender, while it would be great, is really not such a big deal to me right now. All I really care about is that Scrappy is healthy and developing properly. Gosh I'm so nervous. Must remember to breathe.

Speaking of developing, take a look at these belly pics - taken at 18w5d. There's no hiding it now!