31 & Cross Eyed

Today I am 31 years old. This year has gone by so fast. There have been so many ups and downs, but mostly downs this year unfortunately. Here's hoping that 31 treats me better than 30 did.

I have noticed (in my old age) that over the past few months, I am going a bit cross eyed. It seems to happen when I first wake up in the morning, and when I'm really tired at night. My eyes cross and I start seeing double. I can't seem to undo it. I either have to wait it out - usually takes about 10 minutes in the morning - or just go to sleep.

I have also noticed that bedtime has become earlier and earlier over the past couple of years. I can remember when I would routinely go to bed at 1 or 2am with no problems. These days it's a miracle if I make it past 10pm.

I can't tolerate alcohol as much as I used to either; I believe this to be another product of getting older. I remember when I could polish off a whole bottle of wine or several beers and not feel a thing. Now, one glass of wine or one pint of beer usually has me under the table. It's embarrassing.

But other than a few grey hairs, I wouldn't change a thing. I like being an adult in my 30's. I'm excited to share all the things I loved from my childhood with my someday child. I like the idea of changing from kid to parent. I like the responsibility of a mortgage, bills, career and hopefully family. I surely don't know everything, but by now, I know a fair bit about what NOT to do. It's empowering.

Here's to being thirtysomething.

Transfer tomorrow at 9:45am. I really hope my birthday wish comes true this year.