Sunday, March 30, 2008

20 Weeks Today [Updated]

With luck and G-d willing, today marks the half-way point in this pregnancy.

Half-way there! Yahooooooo!!

I am counting the seconds until I get to meet my daughter. Here's hoping the last 20 weeks go a lot faster than the first 20 weeks!

[Update: So shortly after I wrote this post, D and I headed to bed. On my dad's suggestion, I thought I'd try playing some music to my belly to see if I could get the baby to kick. I loaded up my iPod with a bunch of mellow Beatles songs and sitting in bed last night, I pressed the headphones to my belly. It took about two minutes and then I felt her kick! I told D to put his hand on my belly and sure enough, he felt her kick too, for the first time! It was so magical I almost cried. My husband's first real connection to his daughter.

And can you guess which Beatles song got our little girl kicking? "Something In The Way She Moves"... Appropriate, no?]

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Worth Every Penny

My mum called yesterday to excitedly tell me that she went out and bought "the cutest baby girl outfit you've ever seen."  Between my parents and D's, I have a feeling this little girl is going to be very, very spoiled.  Speaking of outfits, there is a great collection at Cafe Press for babies conceived through IVF and other forms of ART.  Check out what I ordered yesterday (I couldn't resist):

I'm so glad you all like the name we chose.  Everyone we've told has seemed to like it (or they're just being polite - but either way who cares).  Unfortunately, the battle surrounding the middle name continues.  D and I simply cannot agree.   I want it to be a symbolic name, representing a family member or someone (or something) important to us; and D, I think, is going for more of a nice sounding name.  It truly is becoming The Big Baby Name Debate of 2008.

Lastly, our little girl's kicks and movements (still just flutters at this point) have become s-l-o-w-l-y more frequent but I still can't seem to sense a pattern yet.  She was totally quiet for past two days until last night - we were watching a movie and she went crazy.  For the second time ever, I got to feel her from the outside.  While I'm truly grateful for any movement at all, I'm jealous of those who are getting routinely kicked and punched on a steady basis.  I know every baby is different, but I can't help but wonder when we'll get there.  Still so many milestones to look forward to!

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Reeling

I haven’t touched the ground in almost 24 hours. D and I are both SO HAPPY to be having a baby girl. It’s weird actually, I really thought in my heart that Scrappy was a boy. And now that we know she’s a girl, I can’t imagine it any other way.

It’s still hitting me in waves. Finding out this amazing news has made this experience feel so much more real. It’s really happening! I’m going to have a daughter! A DAUGHTER!! I am literally seeing pink.

D is thrilled too. I think he was a bit shocked at first but now that the reality is setting in, we’re both getting more and more excited by the minute. When D was leaving for work this morning, he rubbed my belly and said “Bye my little girl! Have a good day!” So sweet.

We can’t stop talking about her, dreaming about her, thinking about her and planning for her arrival.

We have already decided that:
-She will never date (no guy will ever be good enough for her I’m afraid)
-She will never wear makeup
-She will never wear dangling earrings, or have her ears pierced for that matter
-She will never stay out past 7pm

Thinking about this baby as a girl just makes me want to protect her.

Also, last night, we made a firm decision on a name. I am really happy with it. I haven’t decided it I’m ready to share it with the world yet… Well, OK, maybe just with you guys…

Our daughter will be Maya.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Just Got A Call From My Doctor's Office...

And if you can't tell from my new blog design...

We're having a GIRL!!!

I am so happy, so thrilled, so excited, words cannot express...

I'm going to have a daughter. My daughter.

My baby girl.

How Cute Is This???

Baby is sucking his/her thumb in the first picture. The profile in the second picture looks amazingly like my husband (guess we can rule out the mailman!). Lastly, I give you Skeletor Baby. I just adore this kid!!


*So hey, listen...
I didn't want to ruin the scan by blocking out my name with pen, and I couldn't figure out how to do it on the electronic version (I don't think I have the software)...So if there are any creepy internet freaks out there who are thinking of stalking me...please don't. I'm really not very intersting. Thaaaanks.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

A Sigh Of Relief...And We're Having A Girl? Maybe??

Sweet relief!!!

Today's ultrasound went great. Unfortunately we had quite an unfriendly technician - a Chinese lady with broken English who was definitely NOT into making small talk. The first thing she said to us was "do you want to know the baby's sex?" Both my husband and I simultaneously replied "YES!". She then said, "Well I'm not going to tell you today, but I will write it on your chart and you can call your doctor's office next week to find out." You know I will be calling first thing on Monday!

But those are not the important details of this post. These are:

-The baby measured "good" and "normal" (tech's exact words) on all counts according to the technician.
-The baby was moving all around, kicking and punching and being extra cute.
-The baby had all its parts and organs, right where they should be, and everything looked great.
-At one point, the baby reached up to suck its thumb, which made both D and me just melt.
-The baby measured one day ahead (19w3d) of its actual gestational age (19w2d). This bumps my due date ahead by one day but really, how often do babies actually arrive on their due date? (Answer: 5% of the time) I'm still keeping my original due date of August 17, 2008, although I guess technically now we can expect our little one on August 16, 2008 instead.

I was so mesmerized by seeing the baby, I forgot to ask the tech to measure my cervical length. I'm kicking myself about it now. I don't know if they automatically measure it or only if you ask them to. Either way, I'm going to call my doctor's office tomorrow and ask about it. Or maybe I won't. The numbers freaked me out so much last time, maybe it's better if I don't know the details and instead just accept those two most wonderful words ever uttered in broken english by a Chinese sonographer: "Good" and "Normal".

On a side note, the technician did let us get a good long look at the baby's "in between the legs" area and based on my "internet ultrasound observational expertise", I am pretty darn convinced we're having a girl. We'll know for sure next week!

I'll post some pictures from the scan tomorrow. No offense to any of you out there in blogland who are currently pregnant or have babies, but I gotta say - my kiddo is the Absolute Cutest Baby Ever. Consider yourselves fairly warned.

Monday, March 24, 2008

A Heart-Racing-Dry-Mouth-Clammy-Hands Kind Of Nervous

Only one more sleep until the big ultrasound. T minus 29.5 hours.

I am a complete and utter nervous wreck at the moment.

I wish, hope and pray that everything goes well and that we hear nothing but good news about our Scrappy. I’m finding myself incapable of concentrating, or even thinking about anything else. I’m putting off all other thoughts and decisions until after the ultrasound. My attention is a white-hot laser beam of focus right now and I find myself barely capable of going through through the motions of being at work; I am not at all present.

I just called my husband and babbled something completely incoherent to him. I have no idea what I was trying to say and now both of us are confused. What a state I'm in. I feel like I'm going insane.

Every minute that ticks by feels like at least 20. Could it even be possible that time is going backwards??

By the time 4:30pm tomorrow rolls around, it is entirely likely that I will have dissolved into some sort of hideous, crazy buzzing neon foam entity.

Behold, Hilary in just 29 hours from now (note the buff arms and atrophied legs due to the prolonged cultivation of my 'fight or flight' anxiety response):